There was nothing we could do. So I just stayed silent and trying to telepathically communicate.. How sorry I was about what had happened. And I thought of all the grief and sadness.. And fucked upsuffering in the world.. And it made me want to escape. I wished with all my heart that we could just.. Leave this world behind. Rise like two angels in the night and magically.. disappear.
Jealousy plays a major role for those who are in their teenage years. Ive come to notice, that when people are jealous these days, they take things too far to reach a high rank of satisfaction for themselves, if that makes sense. Girls have become bitchier than ever before. So what if she's blessed with good looks, Boo hoo, Thats just pure luck and the mixture of her parents chromosomes creating her appearence. What im saying is that, by looking at one girls picture, whether shes exposed her skin/body or just has a real nice photo, a girl is going to bitch about it and critize, Not because she can, because shes actually jealous even though she may not think she is. Its a fact, and its true. Girls, seriously grow up. The reason im expressing this to you people is because the pictures on my blog are what girls are critizing about. I think that everyone should be thankful with what they have, and they deffinetly shouldnt have to critize about one anothers appearence etc, because they are blessed with good looks ? Get over it.
I know who I am and I am always me, although I can be really intense at times.. Sometimes I'm shy, painfully transparent, sharp at times, at others silly. I am one intense adjective at a time, and while I'm there, I don't resist those feelings. I rest in those moments. I call it freedom. Maybe I'm nuts (probably), but I notice that when I fight myself, suck myself in, I lose all the stuff, the fruit, the core of me that I enjoy the most. Some find me off-putting, but here I am. Take it or leave it. Being honest outwardly and most important inwardly is terrifying. Maybe they won't like you. Maybe they won't understand you. Maybe you won't get the job. Maybe all that is true, but not every chance belongs to you.
There are people who deserve you and people who don't. If you have someone in your life who takes you for granted or doesn't give you the respect that you deserve, leave them in the past where they belong. Surround yourself with people who challenge your mind and bring out the best in you. As for the ones who only exist to bring you down or cheapen your potential; let them find people who are better-suited to their own qualities and principles. Hold yourself to the highest standard possible. People who don't measure up don't deserve your time. People who can't see past their own cowardice or their own arrogance don't deserve your time. Anyone who doesn't treat you the way you treat yourself doesn't deserve your time. And if you are treating yourself in a way that gives people permission to take advantage of you, start showing yourself the exact same respect that you should be demanding of everyone else.